My Life - (How it used to be) Part I -
One More Night winds down & I find myself alone again
All Alone In this same town, in the same room on my knees and cuffs
Begging the gods to let this end
I just wish It was still within me to cry
But my tears have fallen victim to an all consuming drought...
Brought on by the depths of so much pain
Residing just under the surface of my face
But I really dont know what to do,
Because all the addictions mixed with this incesant rain...
Makes it so heartbreaking when you cant find a shred of truth in a single word you say
And its a real world reality Ive slept, lived and breathed since my youth
It makes it feel like the perenial change of season every year
Like the knot ever tightening its unrelenquishing grip around the metaphorical noose
All Alone in the same damn fucking place again
Its no wonder I feel like Im an inch away from drowning, in every lie & exaggeration I passed off so I could win
Its easy to understand, if you have walked through the same twisted dark shadows I have...
Perhaps then you could relate to what I have seen with these eyes I call mine
Now you'll have to excuse me but my break was up 10 minutes ago...
And its just about a quarter after nine
Words By:
*J. Alexander*